Thursday, November 15, 2012


I'm beginning to notice lil odd quirks about know as one does when spending all their free time in their home becoming an agoraphobe on the internet because it's their only friend....I have noticed my inner voice isn't that of a 27 yro woman but of Dylan Moran...a male middle aged irish comic
So today I thought I would share a Christmas card I made. However, I have decided to keep this card because the elf looks evil >.<. Back to the drawing board with me I suppose.
Well, there she is all cute and very not friendly looking,lol :P.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Progress and the road to happiness

So, Obama has been re-elected. This to me is wonderful and I believe that with enough positive support and backing he can help repair this nation. But it shouldn't just be saddled  on his shoulders as a country we can't just sit back. We have to do something. We have to help as well.

Also during this election Question 6 passed in my home state of Maryland. It means homosexual couples can now have legal civil unions. I feel absolutely ecstatic knowing that by a majority the state supports love,regardless of gender. It's good times folks, good times.

Sunday, November 4, 2012

Sleep deprived and full of poetry


I heard him cry for her
a desperate plea for help
filled with terror
with the mind awake 
and the body still slumbering
I heard him cry for her 
demon upon his chest
I heard him cry

I wrote this a couple weeks back. I suffer from sleep paralysis and so does my father. One night I was lying down trying to sleep and I her my dad cry out my mom's name, he sounded so scared. And I know from experience it a truly terrifying thing.

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Hurricane Sandy and other things from this week

Okay, so I live in Maryland on the east coast about 20 minutes from the beach. My family was very prepared for what has now become known as frankenstorm. Hoooooooowever, a lot of people I know and some I am friends with made light of the situation saying it wasn't a big deal. First I knew people who didn't even bother getting prepared and then also decided to make comments that the storm wasn't too bad and made lots of jokes blah blah blah...I honestly cannot understand why or how people can be so stupid and self centered. Yes it's nice that we didn't get it so bad but loads of people lost homes and some lost their lives. Cities and lives destroyed by what is now the worst storm to hit the east coast in a century. The entire idea that weather won't or doesn't affect you is stupid and selfish. The world doesn't revolve around you. Grow up and learn some respect. Ahem anyway.....-sigh- I've been debating with myself for the last few months on whether I want to purchase a ps3 or ps vita. Pretty sure I've decided on the ps3. Also gonna do some shopping for winter clothes and pressies for people for xmas. Oh oh and on a happier note I watched the remake of the munsters and it was brilliant! It's called Mockingbird lane :3 watch it! :3 I would like to end this entry by saying my heart goes out to all those affected by hurricane Sandy, I am sending all the positive vibes I can. 

Friday, October 26, 2012

I just want to know when did the cast of my lil pony (a kid's show btw)  become sexy and a good idea for a basis for porn and fetishes? I'm lost, extremely lost. Though in fairness life gets weirder by the day because yesterday I saw  Seasme Street slutty Halloween costumes -falls over- I give up. I know that the end is coming when people think it's normal to see a person dressed as Big bird giving someone dressed as Snuffalupogus head....

Thursday, October 25, 2012

I am not your journal. I have an opinion

This about something that has been a problem since I was quite young, I'd say around ten. People like to come to me. To listen to them. Mainly about life's troubles, their troubles. I don't mind until some of them start to think of me as some sort of journal. That they don't realize I have a view and opinion on what they are saying. It's becomes a problem when people come to me, then ask for advice, but then don't heed my advice. Because all they wanted was someone to validate what was happening. A bigger problem is when people talk to me because they don't think I'll do anything or can't. I will by the way and I have. My door is always open to those who truly want advice but to those who want to tug on my heartstrings or are looking for validation. I am not a confessional. I am not your priest. 

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Suicide is not the answer

This post is about my reaction to the facebook page dedicated to Amanda Todd. As someone who suffers from severe mental illness, which by the way was not caused by neglectful parents, this story is easy to relate to. There were  comments about there needs to be a page dedicated to all suicide victims or people suffering from depression. There is and learn to use google. There are numerous foundations set up i.e. the purple ribbon foundation? Pretty sure that's what it's called. This girls life and what happened to her is not a joke,nor are comments saying oh well she wasn't murdered she did this to herself. Wow, really? Obviously these people have never suffered from depression. Amanda Todd was targeted by an obsessive pedophile,who stalked her and essentially destroyed her life. And anyone child,teen, or adult has no right to say it was her fault unless they care to examine their own faults . Do not tell me you have never done anything stupid or you've never regretted something. Get over yourselves and if your lives are that pathetic that you need to seek out pages about tragedy to post stupid ill informed comments and bad taste jokes to make yourself feel better/look cool/impress people who probably don't give a shit about you...maybe you should take a look in the mirror. Grow up before the real world slaps you in the face. My hope is she found solace after death and I'm sorry that she thought her future was so bleak and hopeless,that suicide became the only answer,when it wasn't it shouldn't have been. I posted this on the page and to be honest it was like screaming in a crowded room where everyone was deaf. Sitting and trying to present people with facts was quite stupid on my part when they didn't want facts, they wanted a news story that bled. They want something violent and controversial and they want to shame this girl just to make them seem cool or feel better about themselves and their own life choices. This girl was by no means perfect, but the key word is girl, not woman. She was a child who made a stupid mistake and it followed her and tormented her till she felt the only way out was death. It's incredibly sad and my only hope is that people will eventually learn from this. You can only push people so far into a corner before they react. My prayers are with the families and victims of suicide due to bullying,depression,ect. This shouldn't be the answer.

The Halloween is upon us,yes, yes it is

Today I spent about 2 hours painting a giant pumpkin. With great attention to detail I painted an owl and moon,stars and a bat and some cloud swirly things. Sadly, however anyone passing my house will look at my pumpkin and think wow that person is lazy and they just painted a pumpkin black >.<. It's okay though because I know how beautiful my pumpkin is. yes, beautiful.

Saturday, October 20, 2012

Bubble wrap..Gentlemen,bubble wrap

Bubble wrap is what I believe will unite a world and bring about peace ...All with the love of bubble one dislikes bubble could have bubble wrap would be amazing
and there's all types of bubble wrap ....get on it world ...start the mass production of bubble wrap and bring about world peace

Friday, October 19, 2012

Spirit Day and anti bullying

To the people who don't know what spirit day is, it's a day to spread awareness and prevention of bullying of the lgbt community. The prevention and awareness of any kind of bullying should be spread in any way possible. Which btw October is national bullying prevention month. To anyone who reads this and can relate, spread the word. But to those who don't understand,try. I won't attempt to force my ideas or beliefs on anyone but at least listen,read what I have to say. The majority of the people in the USA most likely have Christian based beliefs. To those who say they are God loving people who are doing God's will remember this "For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again" Mark 4:24. If you believe the things you read then you should remember that you a fellow human have no right to judge what God has created, when we all were created in his image. Also one last quote" Whoever claims to love God yet hates a brother or sister is a liar. For whoever does not love their brother and sister, whom they have seen, cannot love God, whom they have not seen." 1 John 4:20. And even if you are an atheist or you don't know what you believe..sit and think what gives people the right to harm,be malicious to people. It could very well be that people enjoy the drama,the hate, perhaps they are just bored, or even they think the person or group is icky. They should at least own up to it though and not hide behind religion or an idea of what people should be. Bullying is wrong on all levels,human nature yes to go after and take out the weak,but still wrong. To people who see this watch your actions and how you treat people...because the people,the children around you learn from you. Don't spread hate. The world has enough going on.

Nearly forgot it was October

It's more than halfway thru October and I haven't watched Hocus Pocus -shakes head- I'm ashamed of myself just ...just don't look at me ...the shame I can't bare it ....

Why world? Why?

My head hurts from looking at this stuff
So while I don't like who Nik Richie is ...but he's right in calling Doug Hutchison a child molester ...his reasoning for it be okay for a 49 year old man to marry a sixteen year old girl is's accepted in loads of countries...yeah you are right the child sex trade and pedophelia is less frowned upon in certain countries ...but using the phrase I believe in love sounds an awful lot like what pedos say when defending themselves...that they love these kids and no one else will understand this love...I realize this girl looks like she's 30 ...that doesn't change the fact her brain isn't fully developed ...she is not emotionally mature and she's was 16 ...16!...and and the whole she finds it funny that she sometimes accidentally calls him dad.....-shakes head-

Friday, October 12, 2012

Rants about fighting ignorance with more ignorance

Today my rant is about women's rights. Okay, so to start ...I am for women's rights. Well in all honesty I'm for equality all over the board. We are all human no one is lesser than another. But I've noticed as the election day approaches more and more women (some who I know and others who I don't know but I've read statements they've made) going all out and getting angry and fighting back. Firstly I do agree with what they are trying to achieve just not how they are going about it -sigh- . I don't think a government primarily made up of men should be making decisions for  an entire gender, the opposite gender. Also the cutting off funding for Planned Parenthood...I certainly don't understand that...pretty much because they want to get rid of it due to , I'm assuming now, but because a preconceived notion that it's just a place to get abortions and contraception...Well if that's the case they are wrong ...It's women's wellness clinic catering to women of all ages and sexual orientations. They do everything from contraceptives,abortion, some counseling,annual exams,and even schedule mammograms. Anyway my problem is with all these women who are complaining and making statements such as "I wish men would have to experience what it's like to be a woman and be sexually harassed all the time" or " I wish men would have to deal with the fear of being raped" and more statements of that nature...Now this gets me angry because I have had male friends, gay and heterosexual, who have been sexually harassed by women, and some who were raped. Now I want someone to try and tell me that if they were to go to a bar ..that they wouldn't see at least one woman hitting on a guy and essentially harassing them. Anyway my rant is over and it's all over the place but my point is can't lump an entire gender into one stereotype. it's not fair..

Monday, October 8, 2012

An intro of sorts

Hi there internet,
This is an intro to anyone who reads this,if anyone reads this. This blog is going to made up of my opinions and they are strong opinions. But also this blog isn't for anyone but me. People are welcome to read it and comment if they wish... but to me this is a way to vent in a way I'm not able to otherwise. This is not because I want an audience or a soapbox to stand up on and shout verbal abuse. As I mentioned before I have insanely strong opinions but I'm so open minded and occasionally naive, and I just want to believe in mankind. Believe there is still good left in the world. That it isn't what the news betrays it to be. Before I wander off I would just like to say If people do read this and disagree or agree with me I am open to having a reasonable and calm discussion about views. I won't tolerate abuse of any kind. Whether it be directed at me or other people.

 G'night  World